I come from a culture and an upbringing where it's always you before me. Where it's always them before I. Where you have to sacrifice your mental health for those around you. And if you do all this you’re highly appreciated. You’re a saint. This culture isn't toxic, but it tastes like acid when the … Continue reading Self-love in a toxic culture
How do I unlearn to love you?How do I unlearn to live with you?How can you so easily break all those promises you promised you would keep?Maybe time wasn't in our favor.Maybe love wasn't supposed to win.Maybe our happily–ever–after lost itself somewhere in our fights, somewhere in our desires to be more than what we … Continue reading A hurt/love letter
My dad has been my inspiration. He’s believed in me more than I’ve ever believed in myself. Yes we have our moments, but even those moments carry love and understanding. My dad is a very patient man. He’s had to deal with me, my tantrums, and my anxiety. I remember how badly I cried because … Continue reading Strained Relationships
Do you ever have those moments where your heart feels distressed? Where that organ pumping blood through your body just becomes stiff and it starts to ache so bad that you feel like you're having a heart attack. Where your stomach starts to churn for no apparent reason and you feel like you're about to … Continue reading Losing my energy
I despise myself what about you I’m very hard to love maybe you should leave me too. I am not special so please don’t praise me like that or else I’ll fall in love with myself all over again. How do you not see these scars and this imperfect flesh? Why would anyone love me … Continue reading Do you still want me?