I want to hurt you

Posted on by A. Rinum in Uncategorized

I want to hurt you.


Stab you in the back, but I can’t do that without piercing the sword through my own chest first. I can’t make you bleed without causing a rupture in my own heart. How can I hurt you when your wounds cause me pain? I want to bring storms, cause earthquakes but I’ll end up damaging myself more than you. But I’m okay with that. I’m okay with tearing myself apart just to see that tear cascade down your cheek. I’m okay with burning away my existence, just to see that frown tug at your lips. I’m okay with fading, at least I’ll take away a part of myself with you.

Do you ever cause destruction to yourself just because you want to cause damage to someone else? That’s one of the most toxic traits you can have. Where you’re willing to rip yourself open just so someone else could come and sew your wound for you. Just so you could that flinch of pain in someone else’s eyes.

We do that because we’re testing people. We’re testing their love. And the worst part is that they fail. But I don’t understand. What’s the point of testing someone else’s love when you’ve failed at loving yourself?

Published by A. Rinum

I was born in Pakistan, and I moved to the US when I was four years old. From the rural villages of Pakistan to the buildings of New York. Come take a glimpse into my life.

19 thoughts on “I want to hurt you”

  6. You have asked a timely and important question; What is the point in testing the love of the other, when you have failed in loving yourself?
    We here, close to the riots in Los Angeles, are reeling from the shock of feeling this rupture (again).
    Will this be the last time? Will real change come this time? How can it when we are failing at loving ourselves?
    Thank you. Dr. Bob

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    1. I’m so sorry things are turning out like this! The fact that we have to fight to keep people alive is messed up on its own. We shouldn’t have to fight for our brothers and sisters. Life is a basic human right! My prayers go out to everyone 💚

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